It's true Rob has taught me a few things and he is a very good teacher.
1. I have missed being myself. Upon seeing his beautiful face the giggly school girl in me resurfaced. The worst part is I didn't even realize that she was missing. Somewhere between paying bills and taking care of everyone else. I had forgotten to have fun. I was worried too much about what people thought and trying my damnedest to be perfect.
Which brings me to...
2. It's OK to be yourself. Of course I have always known this but knowing and believing are two different things. Rob doesn't have a great deal of confidence in himself and neither do I. But he pushes himself and doesn't try to act like something that he is not. This has inspired me to go for what I want. Like writing again. Something just for me. Hmm... maybe Rob has taught me to be a bit selfish as well.
Which led to this revelation...
3. It is OK to let other people be responsible for their own happiness. I had been putting everyone else ahead of myself until Rob said in an interview, (not quoting) that you can't change the way others think of you no matter what you do. And he was right it didn't matter how hard I tried to make everyone happy they were still just gonna think whatever they thought about me. Not only that but I was living a miserable existence worrying about it.
It was scary at first to just let go of the hang-ups and didn't happen overnight but Rob taught me...
4. To be brave. When you grow up in a home with an abusive alcoholic for a father and a mother who is bipolar you learn to be weary. I had become a quiet person who stuck to the shadows because I was afraid if I was noticed people would see that I didn't belong. Then, on numerous occasions I heard Robert discussing how terrified he was of the crowds and what people expected of him. All of a sudden it dawned on me that being brave didn't mean your not scared. It means that you are scared but do it anyway. I learned that I was a 30 year old woman who was treating herself like a kid and still letting her parents control her every movement. This has brought about some changes in my life that some are not happy with, but I think of Rob and all he has taught me and I just go to my happy place.
5. Rob (and Twilight) has given me back a faith in humanity. To see all of these people of all ages and places come together that share something in common. It served to remind me of human nature. That we all have basically the same needs and wants deep down. I was so busy hiding from the world I had neglected sharing myself with anyone.
And speaking of sharing myself...
6. Robert has taught me that I am a sexual being. I never thought of myself that way. Again putting everyone else's needs above my own. But when I saw him all of these urges flooded me. I am not going to elaborate on this cause I think everyone knows what I mean. *wink* Also, while writing eRobica (which I hope to post this weekend) I learned that I am embarrassed to write the word "cock". *blushes*
Now it's your turn. What have you learned from Rob?
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