I Know

I know that happiness is hard to find.

I know because I've searched.

I know that good times are hard to come by.
I know because I've looked.

I know that life isn't always easy.
I know because I've seen.

I know that sometimes you just can't win.
I know because I've lost.

I know that being right isn't always worth it.
I know that wronging others never is.

I know that some days the sun just won't shine.
I know that some days the rain is preferred.

I know that sometimes your closest friend can become an enemy.
I know that an enemy could become your closest friend.

I know that the clock and the calendar never stop turning.
I know that trouble and heartache never stop returning.

I know that forever is a myth.
I know that one must choose to believe.

I know that time doesn't heal.
I know that what doesn't kill us makes us stronger.

I know that some decisions are difficult to make.
I know that you don't always get a choice.

I know that words can hurt as much as sticks.
I know that everyone lives in a glass house with a black kettle.

I know that some dreams are not tangible.
I know that some nightmares are real.

I know that some nights the past catches up.

I know that demons live inside our minds.

I know that when I feel weak the memories will come.

I know this even though I want to forget.

I know that I don't live in that house anymore.

I know that those people can't hurt me anymore with words or sticks.

I know that if I picture your face, I can forget theirs.

I know that if I listen for your voice, I can forget theirs.

I know that at these times it is you whom allows me to exhale.

I know that I will forever be grateful to you for it.

Dear Diary

Dear Diary,
Today I fell in love with a boy who makes my pulse race. I saw him in the theater. He was so pale and sad. I wanted to take him in my arms and wish away all his worries. He kept his hands in his pockets and seemed nervous. I was nervous too. But then he smiled and his whole face lit up. I've never wanted to make someone happy so much in my whole life.

Dear Diary,
I saw him in the grocery store today. I wasn't prepared to see him there and his presence made my skin tingle. I wondered if he smelled like sunshine the way he felt like the sun to me. His beautiful lips were puckered as he whistled. I think he must sound like an angel.I was positive  I couldn't love him more...and then he smiled.

Dear Diary,
I saw him again today. Someone asked him a question and he blushed, it's now my favorite color. His voice was smooth and sultry. His answers were smart and wise. He smiled again, this time while running his hand through his hair. I feel sure my heart stopped beating for a second.

Dear Diary,
I heard him sing today and I'll never be the same. The emotion that poured out of him was overwhelming. I found myself wiping at tears. I watched as he played piano and guitar. His charms never ending. My love ever growing.

Dear Diary,
Today I watched him cross the street. I don't know if he was with anyone because I couldn't tear my eyes from the sight of him. He is a vision that never fails to take away my breath. I see him in everything upon which my eyes fall. Maybe I am deranged. If so it is a sweet, sweet madness of which I hope there is no cure.

The Perfect Man

Most of you know my story of how I became Robsessed but what I don't elaborate on is that this all started by me trying to find a way to get him out of my head. That's sort of a nice way of saying I was trying to find something wrong with him. I'm so sorry. I didn't know. I mean look at him! I figured he had to be an asshole or stupid as fuck. Forgive my blasphemy. So I watched interviews and that didn't help. He's all cute and silly and talks all swoony (Is that a word?) And he's surprisingly smart and thoughtful. I started seeing all these different facets of his personality and even the way he looks. I learned how once you've seen the first pic you are already hooked. How every picture you look at draws you a little further into his web until you wake up in the morning craving him. 

This is just pure, hot sex. Period. This pic made my brain pack up and move in with my hoohaw. Now inside my head there's just a neon sign flashing "Rob".

Awwww He's just a boy. Maybe I should...breastfeed him?

Wait! Is he a bad boy because he looks so good? Or does he look so good because he's a bad boy?

Awww he's not a bad boy. He's an angel. Can you hear the choir of angels?

What the...? How ...what... huh? Fuck! *sigh*

I swear I can see the future...forever.

Dear Lord, please, just once?

He's so beautiful it brings tears to my eyes and makes my heart literally ache.

I want to dip in chocolate and lick him.

Every fiber of my being sighs collectively and whispers, "him"

Testimonials

With all of the commotion these past couple of weeks I wanted to do a post to remind us all of the man who brought us together. No matter how you came to know about him or your reasons for keeping tabs on him. We all do care about him. Women of all ages and cultures have been binded together by something extraordinary. Robert Pattinson.I have some guests joining me this week in the park, we will be hearing testimonials of unconditional love.

Describe Rob in 5 words

Unique, Vulnerable, Talented, Clever, Impassioned

Tell why you love Rob as if you were describing it to him.
Dear Rob, I doubt I can make you understand this because I'm not sure I entirely understand it myself. I tried everything I could think of to get you out off my mind. I thought I was going crazy. I thought I was having a quarter life crisis. I wondered if maybe I needed a cell, a real nice padded one. It occurred to me one day that you make me feel deliriously happy with butterflies in my tummy and a stupid grin on my face. Why was I trying to give that up? You see, I finally realized that while I was busy trying to get you out of my head, you had taken over my heart. You have given me a confidence in myself I never felt before. You make me feel sexy. Some days you are the only thing that makes sense in a world of madness. You make me believe in happily ever after. Just when I'm convinced I couldn't love you anymore, I see you smile. You inspire love, filling all my senses. In you I see forever and my heart has found a home. You and only you.

Book quote
"I come here with no expectations, only to profess, now I am at the liberty to do so, that my heart is and will always be yours." - Sense and Sensibility

Song lyric
You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.
You'd be like heaven to touch. I wanna
hold you so much. At long last love has
arrived. And I thank God I'm alive. You're
just too good to be true. Can't take my
eyes off yoy.

Pardon the way that I stare. There's nothing
else to compare. The sight of you leaves me
weak. There are no words left to speak.
But if you feel like I feel. Please let me know
that it's real. You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.

I need you baby, and if it's quite all right,
I need you baby to warm a lonely night. I love
you baby. Trust in me when I say: Oh pretty
baby, don't bring me down I pray. Oh pretty
baby, now that I found you, stay. And let me
love you, oh baby let me love you, oh baby....

You're just too good to be true.
Can't take my eyes off you.
You'd be like heaven to touch. I wanna
hold you so much. At long last love has
arrived. And I thank God I'm alive. You're
just too good to be true. Can't take my
eyes off you.
-Lauryn Hill

Movie quote
"It seems right now that all I've ever done in my life is making my way here to you." - Bridges of Madison County
"I'm scared of walking out that door and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I feel when I'm with you." -Dirty Dancing

poem

Looking For Your Face

From the beginning of my life
I have been looking for your face
but today I have seen it

Today I have seen
the charm, the beauty,
the unfathomable grace
of the face
that I was looking for

Today I have found you
and those who laughed
and scorned me yesterday
are sorry that they were not looking
as I did

I am bewildered by the magnificence
of your beauty
and wish to see you
with a hundred eyes

My heart has burned with passion
and has searched forever
for this wondrous beauty
that I now behold

I am ashamed
to call this love human
and afraid of God
to call it divine

Your fragrant breath
like the morning breeze
has come to the stillness of the garden
You have breathed new life into me
I have become your sunshine
and also your shadow

My soul is screaming in ecstasy
Every fiber of my being
is in love with you

Your effulgence
has lit a fire in my heart
for me
the earth and sky

My arrow of love
has arrived at the target
I am in the house of mercy
and my heart
is a place of prayer

-Rumi

Your wish for his future
My wish is for you to be as happy as you have made me. No matter who it pisses off.

Most embarrassing thing that you have done or that has happened to you because of your Robsession
I have been laughed at in countless stores when asking for Rob stuff, like magazines. My sister embarrassed the hell out of me at Books-A-Million asking the clerk if they sold a life size blow up doll of Rob. The most embarrassing thing happened was at church when my nephew told the lady next to us with the Edward cellphone that his Auntie was going to have Robert Pattinson's beautiful little bastards.

How has your life changed to accommodate Rob
Lack of sleep being predominate. Eating meals on the fly. Can't leave the house without gathering materials such as iPod loaded with pics and sound-bytes. 

What makes him different than any other man
What makes him different than any other man is that he IS every man. He's the class clown. The uber shy nerd. He's the heartbreaker. The fun party guy. The loyal friend. The artsy eccentric. He's the playboy. The boy next door. The man of my dreams.

Explain how he has made your life better
He seems to fill a hole in my heart I didn't know existed until I saw him. When I'm feeling sad, he makes my day brighter. He affords endless inspiration. He makes me want to try harder. Be better. 

Come back tomorrow when RPfangirlDC from It's Roblated will be joining us.

Best of Week

Going Crazy On Photoshop at Edward to my Bella.

Remember Me Wallpaper at Twilusted. I'm gonna make you go to her sight to get it full size. Just like with the one above.

The Robert Pattinson/Pat Robertson Dichotomy at The Cougar's Den.

Manip Monday at 17Forever.

Monday Musings at Why Not?

Make Your Own Stoli Shirt at Edward to my Bella.

I'll Be Hyde, You'll Be Jekyll at Lick My Poptart.

Remembering RAoR Rob at Random Acts of Rob.

MrsP plays with Edward's Face at TwiBite.

Twispired Kit-Forever at Twispired Blogdesign and Ride the Vanquish.

New Pics:

Best tweets:

donnersun - Jesus. I can't...I'm not...I want....Can I.....*thud* 

 owl_ransom -  got a bit dizzy with this one..haha

DreamsOfEdward - Good Gawd look at that face *wipes drool from chin*

sjAimee  - must resist pretty brit boy pictures.....

MrsP_TwiBite  - Oh my---he looks flushed---in a good way

Trumarine - Is it just me, or does he look like a pimp in this pic? I'd be his ho.

ROBERT PATTINSON IS BEAUTIFUL. That is all.

BurdenedThunder -  bless me father for this bitch is gonna sin...again ...and again...and yes...AGAIN

mssammydean  - Oh isn't he just gorgeous.. *tapes picture onto forehead* Now I can look all day...

MrsP_TwiBite   - I love him...so bad. It hurts.